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Eye on the Future


My father died almost 6 years ago. It’s hard to remember this. His presence is still very strong. Every day I see remnants of his being growing in new ways through the legacy of family he left behind him. His son becomes more like him every day, his 5 grandsons, each in their own way, exhibit some random piece of him without any awareness of it having been present 2 generations previous to them. His 7 grand-daughters will spontaneously recall an experience with him, a story, a joke or a lesson that they share whenever possible. Every time you meet a member of our family you meet my Dad. His influence was strong in life and still flavors each of our lives. And so life continues. Aboriginal tribes know this. We are influenced by 7 generations behind us and continue to influence 7 generations before us.

With this awareness we feel a special onus to behave responsibly because we know that everything we think and do affects the future. It’s important that we recall the roots from whence we sprang. History must not be repeated. We must learn to consciously cultivate, nurture and grow the best of who we are and compost the rest, mulching it back into the soil of our consciousness to allow better future growth. Come to understand the person you are today, bearing in mind what you have learned from your forefathers. You are not a lone isolated being. You come through a family tree, your roots run deep. There are inherent traits, strengths and weaknesses with which you have to work. Come to know what they are that you may utilize them to their maximum potential. Evolving consciousness depends on what we each bring forward from our own family roots. We can blindly repeat, and make the same mistakes, or we can learn, make new better choices, fostering the best.

In the art of Bonsai, the external nature of the tree is altered to conform to extreme conditions and inherent species strengths and potential. Roots are ruthlessly clipped back, keeping only what is important and necessary for continued growth, branches are manipulated into unnatural positions of maximum flexibility, and foliage is pruned and forced to a new diminutive expression of perfection. No human being can be made to conform to these extremes, for generations though, our governments and militia have tried. There is a certain strength that comes with surviving conformity, rules and extreme conditions but in the end we strive to be ourselves. In the end, what we believe in the most of ourselves will dictate our futures.

When the Bonsai is left once again to its own nature, even after decades of shaping and molding, it will attempt to revert back to its own genetic DNA patterning. As the internal natural wisdom tries to reveal itself once again it risks it’s life. Some make it, some don’t. As we struggle to free our selves from outside dogmas and rules and conventional structures of recognized power – some of us will make it and some of us won’t. It is imperative that you come to understand and love the truest nature of yourself as we move into the ending years of this cycle we are in before we head into the new cycle.

My Dad mastered the Art of Bonsai, leaving approximately 40 of them for the rest of us to try to keep nurturing along. Some have made it, most haven’t. When I look upon his creations I remember him; his spirit, his vision, and how his heart would not conform. He lived his whole 69 years trying to live free, thinking for himself and questing into every possibility of himself.

Not many (if any) of his little trees will survive the next 7 generations – but my Dad will!

Opening to a Beautiful Mind


I woke up this morning, early, 4:45am. I got a ‘thought knot’ in my brain and couldn’t unravel it while I was lying there so I was forced to get up. On top of that, my dreams, all night, were disturbing to say the least. My life – in my dream – was eroding, earth falling away to gaseous fire pits, big snakes, rotting dying people, secrets, hiding. Obviously some deep messages to figure out…or not! My dreams were being affected by some bad TV watching (serial killers, snakes and mystery). My crazy collection of random thoughts were tying up in knots creating unsolvable problems. So I got up, planted my feet in the real world and made a coffee. As I sat with my coffee in the early morning gray, still mostly black, light, (did I mention it was really early?)  I found myself reflecting on how thought full my brain and life was. I know better than to try to figure my way out of a thought knot. Thinking only makes it worse. ‘Thought knots’ have to be untangled. Carefully. Slowly and deliberately.

As I consciously began to unraveled my ‘thought knot’, I became aware of the huge variety of thoughts that swirl through my brain in any given moment. Gradually, as the various ideas started to let go and flit away, I started feeling better and more centered. My brain stopped its’ swirling and my focus was restored. In the back of my brain I noticed feeling very grateful that I had the awareness to sort through my mind problems.

The mind is an amazing thing with enormous potential to trap us in useless circles or free us into beautiful dimensions of new possibilities. I prefer to spend most of my time in the latter state but occasionally find myself locked in the former. We all do. Fortunately, I have learned to have faith in my brain and in the power of my mind. It’s not always easy to shift your brain away from swirling patterns to useful ones but I have always considered it a very essential piece to my freedom and happiness to be able to access the power of my mind rather than be victimized by the habits of mindless spinning. Within all the mental madness, all the swirling under tow is clarity, focus and direction. Underneath all the muddy thinking hides a crystal clear beautiful mind capable of outstanding feats.

Learn to meditate, spend time contemplating life, play games, find things to laugh at, try new things, say yes instead of no, practice non-attachment.

I have come to trust that my mind is the interface between the outer world and my heart. What I want in my heart will be made manifest through the power I own to wrap my mind around what it takes to get it. If I never discover what I am all about mentally, my challenges are sure to overwhelm me and I’ll never be able to access my power to create the life I want.

My happiness, your happiness will be determined by the freedom we feel to exercise the choices of our mind and we can’t do that if we constantly get bogged down in ‘thought knots’. Happy untangling.